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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Hehe, I don't know why I named this entry like that, but I have Mr. Fluffy on my head so I did it. YES. I did, it! It was me.

Anyway, I haven't written in a while because the stupid censors at my High School's computers blocked blogger for some reason. It says that websence blocked it because "Adult" is a category that is not allowed at blogger. Phbbt.

Right now I'm writing because they finally put the internet up for today in my trade's class, so I took the liberty and time to type. Anyway, there's three paragraphs of me excusing myself already, so it's up to business!

How has my life been since I last wrote? Well, thanks to that week-long leave that I took, my counselor, R.A. and my teachers got worried about me in such way that they felt like kicking me out of the trade, and giving me ride-ups for missing bedcheck.

I eventually got things all cleared-up a couple of days later when I showed proof that I went to Sacramento due to my little brother's burned-leg injury, so that was cool.

Andrew, my boyfriend, got worried about me too; he told me that by Wednesday if he saw me he would probably yell at me for being so late and stuff, but by Friday that he was all sad and stuff and he even bought me stuff as a welcome back gift for whenever I felt like coming back.

What I got was two Inuyasha movies on DVD: Affections Touching Across Time, and The Dream Castle on the other side of the mirror or something. I can't remember the titles quite well. *ashamed* Well, it was movies 1 and 2. :D I love them, by the way. In the second movie Inuyasha and Kagome kiss bye the way! And in the end (after the credits) Mirokou tries to follow Inuyasha and Kagome's example on Sango. ^__^

Of course that week was tiring, and I really didn't want to be there at all; It felt like one of the longest weeks at Job Corps, as a matter of fact! :/ Weekend was good though.

Next week was all right; not much to tell about that... except! Andrew bought me another thing; the Gorillaz: Demon Days CD with a limited-edtion bonus DVD! O__o; I've been listening to it during the last two weeks. This week he bought me the Celebrity Takedown DVD.

It's weird, because I've never been fancied with these much kinds of things before; according to my calculations, he spends about 30.00 dollars a week on stuff for me. I don't mind having these things at all, because I absolutely love them... but I feel bad and ashamed at the same time; I feel like I owe him something, and it's obviously something that I can't give back on return. "I piss poor."

The things between me and Andrew are currently not so good though; on Sunday he told me that he feels that I don't love him as much, and that I need to be more affectionate. He said that he thinks that he's only like a way of me to releive stress, and I told him that I do love him (yesh, I do) and that even though he does releive stress at times, it's a good thing! That stress-releiving is not the only thing I see in him.

He must have taken it the wrong way, because next morning when I spoke to him he brought it up and told me that it hurt him. After class at four, he told me that he almost died thanks to his friend horseplaying with some Helium or something, and that he almost sucked some in. That he had to go to medical, but he's all right now.

Since it's about the fourth time he tells me something similar like that, I figured out that nothing much could happen about that, so I was just releived that nothing happened and didn't bring it up again. At five, after going to the student store and having bought some nachos, I suddently thought that it would be fun to pretend that I'm a blind person, and I closed my eyes and starting attempting to walk without actually looking.

He must have not thinked that it was fun at all, because when I opened my eyes I noticed that he was a couple of meters away from me, with a big irriated look on him. I tried to ask what was wrong, but he just suddently took a pack of batteries he had and he just threw them on the ground. I obviously was confused and a big wigged out, so when he turned at me I just put a weird look on my face that made him even more irritated.

He started walking way faster and way ahead than me, and when he noticed that the spot that we usually sit at (the bus stop) was taken he just got all pissed off and told me to accompany him to get the batteries back. He looked at them, but it seemed that only one of them remained good.

I asked him if I should leave or something, because I naturally didn't feel wanted in there or anything... and after a couple of pouting of his, he turned away and started walking off, so I did too to the direction to the dorms.

He caught up with me a couple of seconds later, and he told me to stay with him and go talk somewhere. I suppose we were trying to work things out somehow, but I was just too annoyed of being treated like an idiot all day, so yeah. I wasn't so nice and stuff.

We finally said goodbye at like 6:30 when he had to go to the mall with Alex, and I had to go do laundry. Later on my roomate brought me some pizza that I asked her to bring, and I mostly forgot about the argument as I was enjoying my time reading a book, listening to nice music and eating the most delicious food in the whole world.

Next morning though, when I saw him... like the weight on my shoulders came back. We tried to talk, but we were both too upset at each other, and we mostly just bitched during the whole conversation. When we got too tired of each other, he suggested that I should go to my class since it opened early, and I did.

I didn't see him at lunch until twelve (half an hour after lunch started) but I didn't even said hi; I limited myself to a nodding of the face and a smile as a greeting or something. I went to eat with Marcos, a friend from my trade, told him what was going on in my head, he tried to help me by giving me wise advice, I suppose... It really didn't help at all.

I came back to class about five minutes late, so as a punishment I got the honor to vaccum the whole room. Mrs. G.G. told us that if we wanted to look for jobs, the internet connection is open, and I did some surfing around www.monster.com ; I remembered about this place and then I just typed away.

I'll write some more later. I'm getting kind of tired now. Fourty minutes until class ends; today is Super Tuesday. Whee.

Posted by Maria at 2:13 PM

Comments:

Too sad too hear that.
Sometimes relationships are hurtful, but remember that sometimes you have kiss a lot of frogs...until you finally find your prince :)
Don't try too hard to find another guy...
Just enjoy your life, and, when you least expect it, you will have found the guy that was meant for you :)

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Diana : 6:33 PM